It occurs to me that the very act of choosing to be with someone can be a way of choosing who you are even when you are not with them. Isn't it strange? Like two people connecting can emit some kind of a frequency that you get caught up in and before you know it you have built a life on this frequency even if it isn't really the life you wanted. It becomes bigger than you and then you are both living and being this person which is really just a sort of reaction to the person you chose to be with and how they perceive you.
Suddenly, or so it seems, you aren't even you. You aren't even any kind of you that you recognize. And, you definitely aren't proud to be you. Not this you anyway.
It makes me wonder how many different ways I can be. How do you choose? What do you do? Do you keep trying, keep choosing until it "feels right". Yeah, maybe that's it.
